My house is quiet right now. Should be peaceful right? But I can feel my heart beating fast and feel all nearvous and shakey. As nap time was aproaching today I started feel that way. The reason is naptime the last 2 days has been a extreme struggle with Emma. I know its cause she doesnt have her binky. She has been doing wonderful at night, I'm so proud of her, but naptime seens to be the hardest. Yesterday she just cried and cried, I felt so bad and it breaks my heart. I cant imagine how hard it is for her. Wait.......I think I just heard her. I told her today before I layed her down that she did not have to go to sleep but she needs to stay in her bed and be quiet,, no sceaming and crying. I put on a lullaby c.d and told her when the music was over if she was awake she could get up. If it was just her I would probaly just let her stay up and lay on the couch but with the childcare kids here,,, they all take naps and it needs to be quiet in here,, shes not very good at being quiet when she is up. Plus she has been horribly grumpy in the evenings when she doesnt take a nap. I just feel so bad. :( She is so sweet and when she starts getting tired she looks at me with a sad face and says so sweetly "Mommy,, I dont have any more binkys, right?",, and I just tell her no, we gave them to the binky fairy and then I tell her how proud I am of her. (Deep breath sigh),,,, I just keep telling myself that this will pass and it should get easier for her.
Well,, I had a whole diffrent post in my head but Im to distacted with this to type it out now. Seriously, why do I feel so bad? You would think it was me that had my favorite thing taken away...... When my kids hurt or feel bad it always makes me feel so terrible. :(