Kohls and weight issues :(

I had $20 Kohls cash given to me the other day.  It was expiring soon and I wasnt gonna waste it so last night I went into kohls, I also had a $10 off $30 coupon,, so more or less I had a free $30 to use. Very exciting.  I hardly ever buy myself any clothes so I went in with a purpose of buying something for myself.  I really need a new pair of jeans.  I tried on about 5 pairs,, nothing fit right,,, the shirts I tried on that I though might have been to big were to tight :(     All in all it sucked.  I almost cried right there in the dressing room.  I was doing so well with my weight loss I had gotten up to 50 pounds lost and something happened and now I'm only 35 pounds lost,, which means Ive gained 15 pounds,,,, actually Ive gained 3 more and havent logged it into mfp, so 18 in a matter of a couple months...thats not normal.   I have been eating more junk and snacking,,,, I've been depressed about money issues and I'm a emotional eater.  I NEED to get this under control and get back to where I was and lose more.  It depresses me Its like I have to be perfect all the time or the weight just creeps right back on me faster than ever.   Ugh,,, I know I'm whining, but this is a real issue for me.  I need to have this self control over food.  I will get this!!!  I will I will I will I will I will I will
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So I did end up getting 2 shirts,, they totaled 50 but with my coupons and kohls cash I only had to pay 20. I used my kohls card.   So Ben says I ruined my no spending challenge.. Whatever..... I"m still doing it,,, necessity......

New Diet Plan

My husband and I started our "healthier living journey" 2012  probably around February.  While I have lost 48.4 pounds I still have 32.6 to go  before I THINK I am where I want to be.  I say THINK because I've never been this weight in my adult life.  I've always been heavy.  I'm the fat one in the family.   Although I don't think I would call myself that anymore.  But I'm still to heavy.  I'm not in my "healthy weight range".  I'm not comfortable naked (not sure I ever will be).  

Throughout this whole thing I haven't really wanted to consider myself on a "diet".  Ive done that before and ended up gaining half the weight back that I lost.  I have really tried to not tell myself that I can't have any certain food, reason being then I'm constantly gonna want that food. That's just how I am.  But since I've been playing around at this back and forth 5 pounds for months now I think its time to stricken it up.  I've been trying to figure out how to do that without being miserable.  I Love food!  And I enjoy eating.  I normally stay within my calories too, but for some reason I' m not losing anymore so here is what I'm going to do for the time being.  No more crackers/chips for the next two weeks at least so I can see what the scale does.  If I really feel the need for something of that nature then I will pop some popcorn with coconut oil.  At least that is "clean".  I was getting a little crazy with the flavored peanut butter also so I'm going to limit myself to only "real" peanut butter or the PB2 for the next little while also.  Also I will be keeping trying to incorporate more veggies into the mix.  I'm finding a lot that I didn't even know I liked!  I am still going to allow myself one "cheat meal" for the week.

As far as exercise I have been rocking it better than ever with that.  I have 2 days left of Jillian Michaels the Shred and then I can move on with my life. LOL   Not stop exercising but just adding new and different things.  I really do enjoy the circuit type workouts though.  I'm defiantly gonna incorporate lots of those in the mix.     I'll keep Ya ll updated!  Here's hoping for big loses!

Level 3

Today was day one of level 3 of The shred.. .. I know I've said it at the beginning of every single level but OH man, this one is rough!  Traveling push ups, sumo squat jumps, regular squat jumps, rock star jumps!!  The list goes on.  I am doing things I never thought in my life I would be able to!  I'm so proud of myself, and of Jess.    
 So 9 days left of this and then we will be on to something else.  I'm loving my heart rate monitor that I ordered. Its so nice to see how much I am actually burning and how hard I'm working from day to day.
Its late and I'm tired but I just wanted to check in here..

Shred update and a date night

Yummy sushi oh how I love thee

Honestly I could eat it every single day!  Ben and I finally got out for a date night Saturday night...We went to Noa Noa, it was our first time there and I loved the atmosphere and the food was delish!  Plus we only had to pay less than $10 because I had a gift certificate from one of my childcare families!  yay!  It was nice to just be us.. Ben said it was nice and quiet,, no kids fighting, screaming, no one saying ewww that looks gross(something Emma has been saying quite often since I've been trying to cook healthier lately).  We just left the kids at home(something I feel blessed to be able to do now that Jess is older and can watch Emma).  We dont stay out long when we do that just in case and Jess had a phone to call us if she needs us. 

 

 

Here is sweaty old me after doing day 6 of the 30 Day shred!!

The soreness is getting better even though I feel like need a hand rail to get up and down off the toilet most days because my legs are so sore. LOL   Its so worth it though.  I'm feeling stronger everyday!  I feel so good and actually look forward to the workout!  I cant wait until the weather gets nicer here so I can get out and take more walks again.. I'm contemplating attempting to jog again this summer... It hasn't worked out before but I'm willing to try again.  I'm just happy,, happy to be taking better care of myself!  Oh and finally the initial gain after starting the program has came off,, I'm pretty positive it was my sore muscles retaining water.  So I've been drinking lots of it to keep it moving along,,, the only problem with doing that is I have to pee all the time!!!  ugh

Salads!!

As I'm sitting here typing right now I am trying to convince my brain that I am NOT  hungry!  I ate a perfectly fine lunch and do not need to eat right now.   I am trying very hard to get back on the right track with my eating and weight.  I need to shed some pounds,,, I feel like a lump, and when I see pics of myself it disappoints me.  Granted I'm still 70 pounds lighter than I was 3 or so years ago but I still need to lose quite a bit more to get back to where I started before I got pregnant this last time. 

I bought fresh veggies over the weekend and made up them all into a salad so it was all premade for me and ready to eat for lunches and dinners....even the kiddos have said the salad taste yummy!  I think already having it cut up and ready to go is the key for me cause during lunch time I'm to busy to cut up all the veggies, this way I can just dump them into a bowl and add a little dressing. 

I know its possible!  I've did it before,, Its just so much harder this time!   Anyone have any good healthy snack ideas that will not give to many calories, but still make you feel satisfied for more than 30 minutes?

Weight loss blog

I started another blog today. Its for me to keep track if exercise and what I eat and stuff like that. I always want to write about it but am worried that the readers here might get annoyed with hearing about what I eat and such so I am just starting a new blog so the ones that aren't interested don't have to hear about it! If you would like to follow my weight loss journey the 2ND time around you can find it here at http://losingit-jill.blogspot.com/

The gym

The whole Y/gym/fitness center ,,,,is a whole new concept for me. I've never been big on exercising, and especially not in front of other people!!! I am to much of a worrier. Worrying about what people will think of me,, but then I joined belly dancing class and loved it, and realized there are people out there in this world that are bigger than me... and certainly if they can do these things than so can I. After all isn't it really all about what makes ourselves happy? So I decided the only way I am ever going to start really losing weight again is if I start exercising, but it proved to be to difficult at home. When I"m here Emma demands all of my attention and when she doesn't have it, she is screaming!! (anyone have any suggestions for that?)
So I decided that I would join our local YMCA,, they have the workout room, free childcare while you workout, and all the programs are discounted that they offer for the kids! I love it! And the big kids love it too! Even hubby, who was very sceptical likes going now too!

Its funny though,, as I'm working out so many things are going through my head. It's usually when I'm doing cardio, cause when I'm using the weight machines my full concentration is on lifting, but there I am working away at the elliptical,, sweating my hinny off(I never knew I was such a sweater until I started working out too) and these things are running through there,,I'll just list them,that will be easier
-why am I doing this?----so I can be healthy and get in shape
-will I ever be skinny?---will I ever be happy with the way my body looks?
-will I ever look like that girl?----remember Jill, the big goal is to be healthy
-I wonder why that guy is here? or that girl? I wonder how long they have been coming, they are still big,,,,,, will I be big forever?
-look how skinny that girl/guy is, are they only skinny because they workout---do they have an eating disorder?
-will I stick with this----YES
-I wonder what they are thinking about right now.
-will Bennie stick with this????
-I wonder what my body will look like at Dawn's wedding
-Man I'm tired
-wow only 5 min left
-I'm so happy I'm doing this!


I know now ya'll think I'm crazy,, but those things really run through my brain pretty much ever time I'm there. And it may sound like I'm judging other people, but I'm not,, I'm really just comparing myself to them. I shouldn't do that, but I do.

I really do enjoy it though,, I look forward to that hour of alone time(even though I'm not really alone), it is a great stress relief for me.

What do you guys think about when you workout?

Mondays stuff

Wow,, what a weekend. Saturday the big kids had the first soccer game/practice of the year. So its on.. we will be busy with that for the next couple of months. It really is fun though to see them doing something they truly enjoy,,, I found out though it will be a little more difficult for me to actually get to see the games this year due to our adventurous 15 month old.... Sitting in the stroller is just no fun, she wants to be out and running around like everyone else!

Then Saturday Jess got sick, then Sunday morning I was sick and down for the count pretty much all day. Emma had had it on Thursday, so I think shes in the clear,,, she actually started it all I think. Gary wasn't feeling to hot yesterday either.

I don't feel 100% today but I really think I need to get out and go over to the Y this afternoon. We cant go on Thursdays or Saturdays now due to soccer :( I know right now exercising doesn't sound to appealing to me but maybe by this afternoon I'll feel better. On Friday we went and did 60minutes of cardio!! 20 on treadmill, 20 on bike, 20 on elliptical,, one right after the other... I thought I would die,, but we managed. It was Ben's idea,, crazy boy!!!

MY menu plan is kinda lacking and thrown together this week but I did manage to figure one out so here it is:

Sunday----all up to Ben, due to my illness
Weekday meals:
fried veggie rice
tuna noodle casserole
crock pot steak
homemade pizza
Fri-Ben and I will be going to Paige's Crossing for a IPFW Warsaw center night out so the kids will probably eat at grandma's
Sat- ??

updates

Wow, its been a long week here! This little one always manages to make me smile though. We finally found out yesterday that the insurance company is going to call our van a complete loss.....totalled! So now we wait longer and find out what kind of check we might get to help get us a new vehicle....So guess who isn't going to get to see what no vehicle payments is like :( The car shop called us this morning and told us the cost of fixing the van would be $5,522.00-------------------OUCH!!!! Our van def. wasn't even worth that much... I guess I really know how to do some damage!

On a better note,,, I lost another 2.2 pounds this week, for a total of 19.6 lost in all! I put a thing in the side bar to help track my losses. WE have really utilized out Y membership this week. Here's what I did so far:

Monday-30min. cardio(treadmill and elliptical)

Tuesday10min on treadmill to warm up, then did the weight machines for the arms for about 40min.

Wednesday-break

Thursday-30min cardio (treadmill and bike),, then leg weight machines for 30 min.

Tonight we are going and the plan is 45 min of cardio, and Sat. morning we are gonna go and do 20 cardio and then the arms again. -------I would like to get there at least 5 days a week, and so far I am doing pretty good at it. I had been fixing dinner then going to workout, but I read yesterday that its not good to exercise on a full stomach, so last night I fed everyone a snack and then worked out , then came home and ate dinner. The majority of my loss this week happened last night so I think that is what I'm gonna try to start doing.

Emma is doing okay in the play room while we work out, she cried last night when we dropped her off in there but they said she stopped shortly after we left. I can see her on the t.v.'s on the cardio machines in the fitness room, so that makes me feel better. I know kids cry sometimes when their parents leave them, because I myself run a childcare business, but I rarely ever leave my kids, so that was very hard for me to walk out of the room when she looked so sad:(

I'm sure she will get used to it though. The big kids love going to the youth room because there is a air hockey table, wii system, computers, mini exercise equipment,,, and other kids to play with so they are loving it!!!

Weigh in day

I managed to still lose a pound this last week,, so that puts my new total to 17.4lbs total. I still have a lot to go but that's still progress. I think we are gonna go and get a membership at the YMCA tonight,, now I just need to get over my fear of looking stupid and everything will be fine,, I guess if I can go to belly dancing class working out at the Y should be okay right?
I ordered a hip scarf off of eBay,, its one of the things you see tied around the dancers waist that has the coins on it and jingles when you wiggle and shake :) I'm super excited to get it!

Everyone have a great weekend!

Wednesday night (I'm not very creative with my titles :)

Tonight after Ben left for bowling I decided to take the kids out for a walk. We ended up walking to a local park that's not to far away. So they really enjoyed that. There wasn't anyone there accept us, so I had Jess help watched Emma and I ran around the big grassy area that they have there. Let me tell you,, I am not a runner! I was so outta breath, but I kept going, then I walked a lap. I think I might keep trying that when we go there, but I'm not sure if I am brave enough to do it if others are there. I don't like people watching me.

Today I made out a full menu for next week, all the kids will be home for spring break so I wanted to plan lunches so I would make sure to have enough for everyone! I got it all done, and I already have my shopping list planned for the weekend.

Pizza :(

Good morning all! There hasn't been much to blog about around here lately, so I thought I'd just post some more rambles.

I have been doing really well with counting calories and staying within my recommended number until last night,,, Bennie wanted to go to the Pizza Hut dinner buffet,,,I love pizza, and when we go out and pay for something like that I feel the need to get my moneys worth. I know, its awful,, I overate by way to much! It sure was yummy though,,, but I payed for it, all night my stomach hurt and I felt nauseous. I have noticed that whenever I am trying to eat right and then blow it my stomach always feels yucky! That will teach me I guess. So then this morning I was up 2 pounds on the scale :( But I'm sure its salt and water retention, so hopefully I will do really well today and then be back down tomorrow.

I need to get on that freaking treadmill. Its been calling my name for weeks, I just cant seem to ever figure out the right time to do it. Excuses excuses....

Emma, budget and my diet

We took little Miss Emma to the doctor yesterday. Her finger is all red and swollen and she had a fever over the weekend and has been super grumpy. Well it ended up it was infected and he gave her antibiotics. So hopefully that will help, we arnt sure what the fever was from, but everyone else, accept for me has been sick so she probably has what they had. Its hard when they cant just tell you what is wrong.

As far as my grocery budget is going,, I spent about 100.00 over the weekend and with a couple of trips last week. So I'm not sure if the $250.00 thing for the month is gonna work. I don't know...I feel like I failed but at the same time that is a very little amount when you consider there is 5 people in my family, plus I provide food and snacks for my childcare kids that I watch. So maybe 250 isn't really a realistic number. I've read other blogs and somehow some people make it work,, maybe I just need more practice. I am not willing to sacrifice the nutrition of my family. I think I will continue to track my totals and see what everything averages out to over the next few months.

I am also ready to step up my weight loss game a little. I've only lost 15 pounds so far and have been stuck here at this same number for weeks! I know for a fact I am eating to much and not exercising enough so I'm gonna step up my game and try to buckle down and stop being lazy about this! My little sis has inspired me, she is like the cutest thing ever and is still trying to improve herself by living a healthier lifestyle, and my cousin is having w.l.s., on Thursday, so his lifestyle will be changing dramatically! I guess its my turn too! If you haven't read my weight loss story in the past you may do so here.http://jill-everydaymom.blogspot.com/2008/09/weight-loss.html I wrote that back in September,, and my feelings are still the same.

Updated belly dancing

My mom called today with bad news :( Our bellydancing class has been canceled due to there not being enough people signed up. WWAAHHHH...

When I heard the news it was depressing and a relief at the same time. I was counting down the days and getting excited and nearvous at the same time... Oh well, she said there is another class in March so as long as the it doesnt interfere with the kids soccer schedule maybe we will try that one.

I know you are all dissapointed cause you wanted to hear of my experiance:) Hopefully the March one will work out.... The good new is I have lost 7 pounds! Yay me:)


Update;;;;;


Okay, well mom called back 20 minutes later and said someone at work told her one of the local dance schools in town has a belly dancing class that starts this Sunday. So guess who is now going to that one.....so we are back on,,,, this is soo crazy!!

Just another random post

I have nothing imparticular to say but I feel like writing anyways so excuse me if this is random and scattered.

I've been so pumped up lately with moving my body and watching what I'm eating,,,,, Finally I'm into it again!! Alls it took was for me to start seeing numbers dropping on the scale and I want them to keep going in the downward motion! Plus I want to be in good enough shape to keep up in belly dancing class! Which believe it or not I'm getting excited about! I rented a video from the library, it was a belly dancing workout and I tried it Tuesday night,, it was fun, but my sides were cramping up by the end!! Then the next day I was doing the hula hoop on the wii fit and my sides cramped up so bad I wanted to quit,, but didn't!! So I must be working some muscles!! Maybe I can lose that roll around my middle!

Emma is walking now. She walks just as much as she crawls if not more!! Plus she can stand herself up from the floor without pulling herself up on anything! Thats amazing to me! She wont be 1 until next Tuesday! We are going to have a small party for her and Gary on Sunday afternoon. There are so many people I want to invite but I dont want my house to be overly crowed so its just close family and I'm letting Gary have a couple friends over. That will be a first, cause none of his school friend have ever came over before! 4 boys 7 and 8 years old,, that should be interesting!! Anyways I'm excited about the party,,, a little stressed to but more excited than stressed. I wish it was not winter so we could have it outside and invite everyone that I wanted but I guess we should of thought about that as we were conceiving because there is nothing to be done about it now! :)

I suppose I should get off here now. I am so happy and loving life right now,, SMILES !!!

OOwwchhh

The last week my body has felt like I'm 102 year old! For those that don't know I got a wii fit for Christmas from my awesome hubby, and I love it! It's great and I highly recommend it to anyone who wants a little encouragement in moving your body. Seriously, I am not all that into video games but this and rock band are awesome. I've been wanting to get started exercising for a while now and this has given me the encouragement to get started and the best thing is it's fun! It weighs you and tells you your bmi, and if your overweight and all that not fun stuff, but then you can make goals and there are all these exercises and games that you can do and it tracks your progress. There is yoga, strength training, aerobics, and balance games. It really is cool and it has got me moving. Also it knows when you've done it and if you don't do it for a couple of days it lets you know you are being lazy:) I don't want to be called that so it motivates me to get on there. I've been doing 25 minutes everyday pretty much, the time flies,, i always want to to more but I've usually got to deal with Emma or something. But the problem is I was so out of shape that my body muscles are killing me,, i am so sore. I sure hope the soreness goes away, there is something with my lower back, it hurts so bad and makes me want to hunch over. I'm sure its just cause I'm doing things I"m not accustomed to doing.
I've lost a couple of pounds now, so now I'm getting motivated to watch my eating. Its exciting. Who knew a video game could encourage someone to get back on track. Hopefully by the time the belly dancing class starts I wont be so sore!!!

This weeks weigh in

Good news! The new scale is working beautifully, its consistant so I know its working..
Drum roll please......................................lost 2.2 lbs.... Yay! I'm happy with that :)

New weigh in...

Okay. I got my new scale last night. It seems pretty accurate, but I was very disappointed. The number difference in the new scale and the old scale was like around 10 lbs., higher than my old one, so it makes it look as if I haven't lost anything..:( so I say ....whatever, I am starting over as of today. I am going to go with this scales numbers, (I threw my old one away this morning). Today is like day 1, I am going to do this darn it!!!! The thing is I am not going to get all obsessive about it, I am just trying to be more healthy, and I know from past experience that the weight will come off, hopefully sooner than later though!

Weigh in postponed

Just wanted to jump on here real fast and say that i will be posting my weigh in tomorrow, We are going to Walmart tonight so I will pick up a new scale while I am there, I just don't feel I can trust mine anymore.... but don't expect much as in a loss ,, I just feel fat so I am not expecting much. Tune in tomorrow

Weigh in :)

Well I'm happy to report that I think I've lost 5 pounds in the last two weeks. As you know from last week, my scale wasn't working quiet right. Its still not working great but this is the number that I get the most and I'm pretty sure its right, so I'm happy! Hopefully I will get a new scale tomorrow. So so far:



total loss-9 pounds

lbs. to go-41