Depressed

That's how I've been feeling lately. I don't know whats wrong with me but I need to get out of this funk. I've just been feeling so sad, but I don't have any specific reason to be. Nothings changed from the norm. I've been so tired and I only do things because I know I have to, my body's been achy. Maybe its the weather,,, I need some sunshine!! Emma has been terribly grumpy this past week,, I swear she always seems to be upset and throwing a fit about something. She has been pretty sick though so I'm sure that's why. Its not her fault.......I still love her:)

I think part of it is me being home all the time. I'm sure most stay at home/work at home moms feel the same but I get so lonely. You just can't have adult conversations with a 2 and 4 year old, then when the other adult comes home he is tired and has his own stresses so I can't burden him with mine. Although lately I don't really feel like talking to anyone for some reason. I had this realization the other day that Ben has sooo much stress in his life,,, he seems to hate his job, and he's the main money maker in the family so when times are tough like they have been he blames himself thinking that he doesn't make enough money(which is not true). He does the best job he can providing for our family and I appreciate it so much. That's why I'm trying to not complain about things so much to him. And I love being home with my kids. I wouldn't have it any other way.

Anyways, hopefully this will pass soon. I know that I have so much to be thankful for and I love my family dearly. I just want to wake up tomorrow and feel like my normal happy self again.