The reason I dont buy generic diapers....

WARNING.....not for the weak stomached

Now I know the reason I buy huggies. My neighbor ( who I adore, and am still very thankful for), offered me a pack of diapers that were the generic brand I think from Walmart. Anyways I thought I would just use them during the day and still use my huggies at night. After dinner tonight my lovely 8 month old was still in her highchair and started grunting, the tell tale sign that a dirty diaper is coming my way.. so I thought I would let her sit there for a minute and finish her business. When she finished I got her out and was carrying her to the changing table, the smell was awful, and the back of her shirt was feeling a little mushy. I knew it wasn't going to be pretty, but boy was I in for it. As I started pulling her shirt off the ichyness(we will just call it that) was ALL THE WAY UP TO HER HAIRLINE ON THE BACK OF HER NECK!!!!! DISGUSTING!!! So after using up about 20 wipes I carried her to the bath and got her all cleaned up then rinsed out the clothes which are now in the washer. Good thing shes so cute cause that was just gross... even my 7 year old son couldn't believe that mess!

Now the question is if she had a huggies on would that still have happened??? We will never know.... But I think those generic diapers just might have become my older daughters new play diapers for her babies:)

Some random pictures from my home

I was trying to think of something to blog about today and decided to just go around my house and take some pictures. A sneak peak into my home.. Now remember I didn't go and clean up for these any little messes just ignore:)

Here is the bread that I made today to go with our stuffed peppers for dinner tonight. Bennie asked the other day why it had been so long since I had made any bread. I told him I was trying not to make it so much because it taste so good and I'm trying to cut back on eating, but I don't want the rest of my family to suffer because I'm trying to lose weight. So I decided to make some today.
Here is my entertainment center in my living room.
A bookshelf on the other side of the living room, note the bottom 2 shelves have nothing accept baby toys on them. I figured it was just easier to give in and let the babies have these shelves instead of trying to constantly get them away from books they cant have or whatever else. So these are their shelves for the time being.
My new shower curtain that I got over the weekend. My other one was torn at both ends on the top and wasn't doing a good job of keeping the water in when we took a shower. Its nothing fancy, only 9.99 from Kmart, but its nice to have a new look in there.
Here is the other side of our living room, and my sweet little baby's mess:)
One of these days maybe I'll show some more pictures for you. I love getting peaks into others homes so i thought this would be fun... have a great day.

Menu Plan,,,,

I am so glad I started planing my menu's. Dinner time runs so much smoother and I really do believe I am spending less at the store. When I plan the menu for the week I am looking in my cupboards and freezer and I plan my meals around what I have. I also plan my shopping trip around the sale flyers and coupons that I have. So heres the menu for this week....

*taco salad

*stuffed peppers ( we never got around to making this last week)

*tuna noodle casserole(or this)

*chili, cornbread

*porkchops, fried taters, corn

*baked potatoes topped with chili, and cheese

* I am hoping to take the kids too the zoo next Saturday and go to Sams club, so since we will be in Ft. Wayne we will probably eat up there.

Grape Jelly

When I do things like this it makes me feel wonderful! Like a real live homemaker:) I made grape jelly today for the first time. All by myself!! Here's all my stuff on the stove.
The juice and pectin and sugar in the pot. I was getting worried here because I wasn't sure how long I after I added the sugar it would take for it to really start boiling again, and it felt like it took a long time. But eventually it started a rollin, and took off like crazy,,,,,SO EXCITING!!!!
And then after their little water bath, here they are, the awsomest thing was I heard each and everyone of them pop after I took them out of the bath, so I know they sealed. I am so proud of myself!!!

I have did a lot of new things this summer when I comes to preserving food, I made salsa, crushed tomatoes and tomato sauce. Froze green peppers, green beans, zucchini, and corn. And now I have made grape jelly!!!! I was amazed at how easy the jelly actually was to do, now I would like to make more,,,like strawberry or something, maybe if I seem some on sale I could buy some extra to try strawberry jam!!


Today has been a pretty good day. Jess had a soccer game this morning, and she won 6-0!! She is really improving. Bennie did his first speech at school today and said he was scared to death, and his hands would not stop shaking, but after it was all over with he felt pretty good about it. Then we had a family reunion to go to, those are always interesting. After that we dropped Gary off at a friends house, he had a birthday party sleep over thing. Its always scary to me when the kids are with other people that's not me!! And Jess decided to spend the night with grandma. So its just me, Bennie and Emma. I came home and made the jelly, now I think we might go out to eat somewhere. Kinda like a date, but we will have Emma, but shes little and doesn't talk back yet so that's no to bad:) Then were gonna come home and probably watch a movie or something. Fun Fun. Its quiet here without the roar from the older kids arguing with each other. I hope everyone is having a great weekend!

7 Random things....

Shannon has tagged me for this one....

The rules:

1. Post the rules on your blog

2. Write 7 random things about yourself

3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post

4. Pass on the tag

Ok,,, here I go:

7 random things about me.......Hmmmmm

1. My husband is 5 years older than me. My step father is 5 years older than my mother, my grandfather is 5 years older then my grandmother. Before my mom married my step dad she was obviously with my father,, they were the same age, and didn't work out.....there seems to be a trend there,,,good thing we are 5 years apart.

2. I went to cosmetology school to become a hair stylist,,,,you need 1500 hours to complete the course,,, I only had 90 hours left to complete and quit!! I hate doing hair. I worried to much about if people would like what I had done to them....And was always a nervous wreck...

3. I am starting to think I have some type of phobia. But wouldn't know what its called. I just constantly worry about everything. I worry what people think of me all the time, even people that read my blog,, I always wonder what people think after they read things about me. Even though I know I shouldn't care because most of the people reading this I will never actually know in real life!!

4. I love just being at home with my family. I would be happy to just be here all the time, if thats what they enjoyed too, but they like to go places so I tag along.

5. I hate shoes and socks!! But I hate people to see my feet, because since I always go barefoot they are always dry and gross, no matter how much lotion I put on them.....(anyone know of a good foot moisturizer for cracked heals?)

6. Sometimes I just wish that my immediate family (hubby, the kids and I) could move far away where no one knows us. Like to Colorado or something.

7. My biggest goal in life is for my family to be happy and know how much I love them!!!

There you have it..... Geez I hope i don't sound to crazy.... If you want to play along great!! I'm not gonna name specific people cause I never know who to tag......Leave a comment though so we can read yours if you do it:)

Weigh in.

Well, I would love to tell you what my weigh in numbers are but I think my scales are broke. They are weighing me about 8 pounds lighter than last Friday, which would be awesome accept I know that's not right. I did not do well this last week. :( We went out to eat,, I made zucchini pinapple bread and ate way to much of it. I haven't been counting points and I think that is what my down fall is. Last time when I started out I tracked everything that went into my mouth. This time I just need to get more motivated. I've been kinda depressed so I think that's hindering my thinking.

But I will not give up. This is a new week and hopefully next week we can purchase a new scale. and I will be able to give you all great results!! Here's hoping, wish me luck.

Tired

I am tired. Just plain wore out. I'm not sure why, I get to bed at a decent hour. I feel like I just go go go, all the time. And no one appreciates it. I'm sure they do but they have a funny way of showing it. Especially the ones I babysit for. I am taking care of their precious babies all day long, and I take good care of them. Some babysitters just let the kids exists and watch TV all day long, but not me I interact with them, teach them things, play with them, and the parents act like they could care less. Like its such a burden to pay me., and let me tell you what, I charge way cheaper than most!! After turning my pay into taxes, I'm not even making a profit., but we need the money throughout the year, and I want to stay home with my baby so its still worth it me.


I just get so depressed when I feel like no one notices or cares what I do:( I wish I could be one of those people who didn't' care what others thought, but I'm not. I will never be, I worry that I'm not doing a good enough job with my own family, I worry that little Emma gets sad when I'm taking care of the other kids I babysit for, and she maybe thinks I love them more than her,, I know that sounds silly but these are things that go through my head everyday. I worry that my husband isn't attracted to me anymore because of the weight I gained. Even though he says he still is. I worry that he wants to be out doing other things more than spending time with his family, I let him do things like bowl and golf and hunt and other things he enjoys, but then inside I feel jealous that he gets alone time out and I don't. And I wish I wouldn't feel that way.


I am sorry, this post isn't very encouraging and I'm not trying to complain. I just had to let some things out. I hate that these things go through my head and I want to do better so badly. I feel that I'm always behind, yet I'm constantly going. I just need to not worry I guess and keep going. Lord give me strength!